Turmoil

Turmoil seems around every corner.

Is there a way to escape it?

I think not.

We live with fear every day.

Do not tell us to think postive.

The word has little meaning to us now.

We are just trying to survive.

Can you grasp the need for

minute to minute survival?

I wonder.

You all sit in your cozy little chairs

in your quiet little minds and wonder

what to eat for the day.

We, on the other hand,

sit in tension all of the time,

wondering if now is the time

we will go over the edge.

Do you sit and look around

every little corner to see if

the one person is lurking there?

Certainly not.

People would think you crazy.

But what if that lurking person

lived inside of you?

What if he or she had the force

to destroy you

and all that you know and love?

Could you sit in your comfy little chair

and not worry?

I wonder, and yet

that is just what you expect all of us to do.

Weariness is a part of every day.

The ones on the inside grow stronger.

You tell us to fight.

What if there is no fight left?

Can you not understand weariness?

Can you not understand

fear for one's self or sanity?

No, these things are far from your imagination.

But let me tell you

these are what we live with every day.

Hope, you say Have "hope."

The words sounds wonderful.

We'll try, but remember please,

our war never stops.

Some of our people never sleep.

They thrive on fear.

Our fear especially.

Please do not judge,

you have not been in our place.

You cannot begin to understand

the daily fight that must be fought.

Don't tell me that we are strong enough to fight,

we are weary.

Don't look at us and say Pull Yourself Together.

Our System doesn't work that way.

Don't look at us and say you understand.

You can't, you have never fought this battle.

Don't tell us to think postive or think of us as one.

Others do not understand.

PLEASE, PLEASE,

try to see that we are all working

the best that we can.

We do not try to live your life for you,

please do not try to live ours.

You cannot,

because we have enough trouble living our own.

We have others who will try

to make your life run more smoothly,

but even they tire and must pull back.

Please try to realize

we want this to be over as much as you do.

Our life is not our own,

it belongs to many others

and so we must do the best we can

with the things that are given to us.

Most of us realize

that it puts a strain on your life

and we are sorry,

but look at our life,

if you can call it that.

The anger, terror,

fear and weariness abound.

Can we control this

much longer without rest?

We'll see!

© 2001 by Far

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Thank you Far for sharing.